Tales of Jealousy and Murder: Small Things

by Mariana (Ladymariann1@hotmail.com)

Rating: R

Category: Drama, A/U.

Pairing: Q/O

Archive: M_A only.

Disclaimer: I don't own them, never will and I make no money out of this.

Summary: Even the smallest of things can change a whole universe.

Warning: I wrote this specially for Halloween, so it follows canon, sort of. Angst and Murder abound. If you only like to read Happy-Obi fics then this is not for you.

It's strange how the smallest of things can change a whole galaxy. Seemingly insignificant things, such as words. Words have incredible power within them. Once they are out of our lips, thrown to the wind, they can elevate us to the heavens...or shatter us completely. And that is equally true of the words that remain unspoken. The silence of words that should have been said is deadly. Many tragedies could have been avoided by the right words, spoken at the right moment.

It's strange how a whole life dedicated to the Light could be so easily turned to the Dark by a few thoughtlessly spoken words.

Just one word from your lips, and everything would have remained the same. But you chose the wrong words. And just like that the galaxy changed. All because of you Master. I hope you are watching somewhere. And I hope you suffer for what you have done.

Naboo.

Who could have guessed that the fate of the galaxy would be decided at such a remote and simple place?

You see, you were dying Master, right there, on that small planet. The Sith monster had wounded you and you were dying. And I could not let it happen. I was sure I could not survive without you.

So I fought like never before, my pain and anger gave me a terrible strength. The monster could not defeat me. And I felt a huge gladness when I saw his body falling away. It is not right for a Jedi to feel such things, but I did not care. That thing had tried to take you away from me.

I ran to you and held you in my arms. You were dying but I refused to let it happen. Our love could not end like that. I held on to your life with the power of that love, I used every ounce of my strength and skill to heal you and I would have given my own life in exchange for yours. I pleaded to the Force for your life and It listened. I could feel it surrounding you, healing your wounded body. And you came back to me.

I can not describe the feeling that came over me. I felt dizzy with relief and exhaustion. I had saved you. Your heart was beating strongly and I felt your warm breath on my cheek. Everything would be all right now. You and I were together again and nothing could ever separate us.

And what did you do then, my Master? Did you hold me, kissed me or thanked me for saving you? No! You pushed my arms away, stood up...and turned away from me.

"Hurry Obi-Wan, I must find Anakin. I do not want him to be alone in the middle of all this fighting".

Your first thoughts were for the boy. That damned boy! All you wanted was to return to him.

Since the day I first met you I had given you everything, my heart, my body, my soul, they were all yours. And you gave me nothing in return. Even after you had been so close to death your thoughts were for others, not for me. I had almost lost you and even then you ignored my pain.

"Now that the Sith has been defeated, we must return to Coruscant. Anakin's training can not wait any longer".

And suddenly, in the middle of my pain and confusion, I saw. The Force opened up to me a blinding flash of light and the future stood clearly before my eyes.

We would return to Coruscant, I would be knighted and you...you would train the boy, dedicate the rest of your life to him and forget about me. I would be alone forever. In those fleeting seconds I finally understood that your love for me was not as strong as the love I felt for you. You could live without me.

At that moment everything that I had learned, all that I believed in was destroyed, washed away by your words and my vision.

I felt the Dark then Master. The pure, powerful Dark you so despised. It filled my soul, drowning the Light, it entered my heart, destroying what remained of my love for you. It whispered the right words in my ears and suddenly I knew exactly what I had to do. I did not think about it, I merely acted, my hand seemed to move with a mind of it's own.

You felt it, of course, the sudden change in the Force alerted you, but it was too late. You turned towards me and looked at me confused, the enormity of what was happening still lost to you. Your eyes found mine and finally I saw the pure terror in your eyes as I pushed the blade of my saber right through your heart.

I had given you life and it was only fair that I should be the one to take it away.

You fell slowly, until your body was laying at my feet. I knelt beside you and held you for the last time. I watched as the light faded from your eyes and whispered the last words you would ever hear.

"I will take care of your "chosen one " Master. I will train him and teach him all about the power of the Dark. I will watch as he destroys all that the Jedi hold so dear. And I will make sure that everyone knows that it was your arrogance and your foolishness the cause of it all. You found the boy and it was you who insisted in the need to train him. And it was you who betrayed me".

Oh, Qui-Gon, your name will be cursed, your failure immense.

I hope you watch it all Master.

End.