Feedback: Ummmmmmm yes please it is my first attempt
He has gone and left me all alone, an incomplete person. A man
who will never know the touch of his hands, his lips kissing
mine, me touching him, all of him, body, heart and soul. The
worst thing of all is not ever telling him how I felt and now I
never will, fate has taken that decision out of my hands, if
only I had more time with him, one last moment.
When he was lying in my arms I could feel his life force
slipping away from me and I wasn't able to do anything. With
everything I knew it wasn't enough to save him. To save my
master the man I loved. I can still feel his fingers sliding
across my cheek; the imprint is burned into my skin, my soul. I
could so easily have drowned in those blue eyes and in that
moment in time I wished I had so that I could have been with
him always and not have felt the all consuming loneliness that
now seems to surround me never leaving me for a moment, slowly
killing me.
I was torn apart my heart and soul ripped away from me. With
him in my life I was complete even if he didn't know how I
felt. Now I will never be whole again. If only I could turn
back time. I would tell him, show him how much I loved him.
Show him he was my everything, the brightest thing in my life,
the best thing.
There are so many times that I look back and I wish that time
had stood still so I could have told him because an eternity
would never have been long enough by his side for me. Why
didn't he wait we were a team, together we would have won. I
did not like the feeling of hate that grew inside of me as I
stared at the Sith waiting to kill him, it was something he
would not have been proud off. I hope I never go through that
again, that loss of control.
I still have to keep going, I made a promise. It was his last
wish. I cannot lie and say that it did not hurt when his last
words were of Anakin and not of me but I understand he was
thinking of the greater good and not of himself that was the
sort of man he was and I respect that, I always did. I now try
to be like him but I fall so short in my eyes all of the time.
I wish I knew how he felt about me. Maybe Qui-Gon did love me
but could never tell me because he was my teacher. I can always
hope and dream that is all I have left. He is part of the force
now, but maybe he can hear me and at least he will know what I
have kept locked up in my heart for so long, too long.
Qui-Gon, master, you were my soul mate, you made me a better
person you taught me so much. Not just in your lessons but also
by who you were the man who will always be with me. I am
thankful that I knew you. I just wish I could have told you
what was in my heart and how much I loved and respected you.
I love you there will never be another like you and my tears
shed just for you.
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