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Warnings: Celine Dion song, and it was written in about 5
minutes but I just had to get it out. Gratefully it didn't
manifest into a long story. Also not beta'd. All mistakes are
mine. CANON!
Disclaimer: Obi, Anakin and the beloved Master belong to George
Lucas, thanks for letting me borrow them. The song written
about belongs to James Horner and Celine Dion(I don't even like
it anymore!)
Feedback: yes please. Tell me how bad it is and let me know if
I should post any more. To muldergirl@hotmail.com
I heard a song today.
Jedi aren't supposed to cry, but I did. The song made me think
of you, my beloved Master, and all of the time that we could
have had. The time we could have spent loving each other or
simply being in each other's arms. Instead you were ripped from
me, and the short time we had together will have to be enough
because it is impossible to have more.
"There is no death, only the force." I know this, I repeat it
to myself every day. It cannot take the pain away but it does
make me think that you could still be around, giving me
strength because, force knows, I need it desperately. The song
reminded me of that.
I hope that, where ever you may be, you cannot see me because I
would hate for you to see me like this, weak and vulnerable.
Sometimes I wish I could go to the force and be with you. Then
I remember why it was that I did not run myself through with
your lightsaber that fateful day on Naboo: Anakin, and my
promise to you.
Forgive me for this but my promise means more to me than being
here for the boy, though I do love him dearly, I don't think
that my training him is a good idea. He has learned to ignore
it when I get into one of the moods that I have now. I wish I
could apologize and forget, but I can't and I feel that he is
suffering from it.
I heard a song today, and I have been trying to live by its
message:
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