The Ever-Present Light

by Becky

Title: The Ever-Present Light
Author: Becky
Category: Angst, POV
Rating: PG
Warnings: No Sex
Spoilers: Set between RoS and New Hope
Word Count: Each part is exactly 100 words
Summary: Part one is Qui-Gon's POV, Part Two Obi-Wan's.
Notes: Follow up to Broken Dreams, Shattered Faith, written at emila_wan's suggestion.
Feedback: Yes, please. All comments are welcome.

Qui-Gon
I've watched him.

I've grimaced in unseen sympathy when he's failed and celebrated his successes, however small.

It wasn't easy for him. There were many lessons to learn, and many more to recall.

He's cut himself on those sharp edges of his mind. Those were his successes. The retreats, more frequent in those early days.... They were not.

Every day has brought him closer. He's learned, he's remembered. He has recovered his determination, himself, and his spirit.

He's looking to the ever-present light now, for all that it still stings his eyes.

He's ready.

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Obi-Wan
It's easier now.

It's been getting easier, for some time. Easier to face the jagged edges of my memory and find something beautiful there, even amongst the pain.

It's easier now to remember what I've always known; that control is neither release nor acceptance. I don't need to deny my pain, or closet it away. I need only be at peace with it.

The light is still too bright. It burns my eyes and half blinds me, but I can not keep living in the shadow of my failure. I miss the sun.

I miss My Master.

I am ready.