Believe

by Anastasia (padawan_ana@yahoo.com)



Categories: angst, first time, romance

Rating: NC-17

Pairing: Q/O

Status: Complete

Archive: M_A

Spoilers: A tiny bit for TPM's characters...nothing by way of plot spoilers for the movie or the JA books.

Summary: This story began as a 'first line challenge' from Mac. The "Obi-Wan, no one is going to believe that we're lovers!" is Mac's, and the rest is all from my temporarily-foggy imagination. : )

Feedback: Please, please, please!! When I don't hear from anyone, I get a complex... : ) Flames, should you feel the need to send them, will be cheerfully forwarded to the ferret, who will hunt down all flamers and bite their ankles. Thank you!

Disclaimers: We all know who these characters belong to (Thank you, Mr. Lucas!), so there's no question as to who's getting all the credit, money, attention, etc. for these wonderful Jedi. (Hint: It's not me...) Disappointing as that is, I'd just like to borrow them to tell this story...

Inspiration: This story began as a 'first line challenge' issued by Mac. I was trying to work on an entirely different fic, but after I read Mac's suggestion the bunny brigade had other ideas. : ) You may also want to keep in mind that this story was written in just a little more than one day's time, while the author was off work and under the influence of a raging case of tonsillitis coupled with strep throat. Couldn't even beat the plot bunny back while waiting drop-dead sick in the doctor's office. Thanks Mac! : )

Thank yous: Thanks to Mama and kaly who read over the first part of the story...and to Calysta Rose who saved me at one o'clock in the morning with a beta of the full story, just so I could post. Thanks for Lyta for reading the first posting of this and letting me know I had the wrong 'vial/vile' use in there. Late-breaking thanks to Righ and Iroshi for making my life (and all of yours) easier by finally telling me how to get RID of smart quotes. It took a while for my brain to grasp the concept, but I think we're all set now. ::blows kisses...don't worry, I'm not contagious anymore::

Note: / / denotes telepathy



"Obi-Wan, no one is going to believe that we're lovers!" Qui-Gon Jinn looked at his padawan, brow furrowing, as he tried to figure out whether the young man was serious.

Obi-Wan met his gaze evenly, his expression showing nothing but serenity. "Not everyone has to believe it, Master," he said calmly. "Just Kotoni."

Qui-Gon masked an audible swallow with a well-timed cough. Obi-Wan was serious.

Kotoni, Ruler Premier of the planet Astoria, was on Coruscant while attending a sector-wide leadership conference. He had run across Qui-Gon only by accident one evening in the dining hall and had been quite taken with him. His repetitive offers of dinner, walks, talking and the suggestion of...more...had all been graciously turned down by the Jedi master, but still Kotoni continued.

The sexual innuendo had been disturbing, Qui-Gon had to admit. But the carefully detailed messages of what a relationship with Kotoni could mean for both of their careers had actually irritated Qui-Gon more than they had concerned him. The currents directing his myriad mediations had constantly reminded him that it was only a temporary irritation to be suffered and released into the Force. The leader's visit to Coruscant was limited to fourteen rotations of the planet and when Kotoni went back to rule his world, Qui-Gon would be free of his presence and influence.

Now, however, Qui-Gon saw that he was not the only one affected by Kotoni's influence.

Using all of his Jedi powers of diplomacy, Qui-Gon tried to make the apprentice see things from his perspective. "The advances of one such as Kotoni are not worthy of a sacrifice such as you propose, my Obi-Wan."

To Qui-Gon's dismay, Obi-Wan looked offended. And hurt.

"Padawan..."

Obi-Wan ducked his head and turned away from his master, preparing to leave the room, but there was something in his eyes that made Qui-Gon catch his arm and turn him back around.

"Obi-Wan?" There had to be something more. His padawan didn't make judgements or suggestions lightly or without just cause. Qui-Gon took a step closer to Obi-Wan, wanting to comfort but not yet knowing what was needed.

True to his training, Obi-Wan didn't step away. He met Qui-Gon's gaze. "Kotoni scares me, Master. He is so powerful...so persistent. I know he holds a lot of power on his world, but it's not just that. I feel more from him. Something dangerous. Something that tells me he will never take 'no' for an answer."

Obi-Wan stopped, considering his words, trying to make his point as plain as possible. "He wants you, Master. In all ways. And I don't think he's going to stop trying to get to you until he has been shown that he cannot have you."

Qui-Gon could not stop the dark blush that spread across his neck and up to his cheeks. He occasionally forgot that his padawan was a young man now, capable of noticing and understanding such things.

"And your...plan...will rid me of Kotoni's advances?" Qui-Gon asked in a strained voice.

"You've got to see that words don't work with him, Master." Obi-Wan said. "I know you've been avoiding him, turning down his offers day after day-hour after hour. But on Kotoni's planet, words mean little. On Astoria, a male seeking a male partner will stop at nothing to get what he wants. Nothing short of finding his chosen companion in the company-in the sexual company," Obi-Wan corrected himself, "-of another male. Even the Ruler Premier would not dare to challenge a relationship such as that."

"So you are saying that Kotoni would stop bothering me if he...found me in bed with another?" Qui-Gon said the words even as he felt his reality skew. Was he really having this conversation with his padawan?

"With another male, yes," Obi-Wan clarified. "He would be forced to halt his advances and to move on."

Mind reeling, Qui-Gon looked at Obi-Wan. "And just how do you know so much about this, my padawan?"

Now it was Obi-Wan's turn to blush. "You have always encouraged me to be thorough in my research of other cultures and species, Master. And so I am-especially where your safety and well-being are concerned," Obi-Wan finished almost timidly.

'Who masters the master?' indeed, Qui-Gon thought as pride surged through him. Yes, Obi-Wan was going to make a splendid knight-and a fine master one day.

Qui-Gon crossed the room to sit by the window. He motioned for Obi-Wan to join him. For several minutes they sat in companionable silence, watching the Coruscant skyline, lights beginning to blink on as dusk set in. Finally, Qui-Gon spoke.

"Just how do you suggest we proceed with this...plan of yours?"




As he went about his cabin, preparing to go out into the night, Qui-Gon again wondered how he had let his apprentice talk him into such a thing. Not surprisingly, he came to the same conclusion he'd reached the first ten times he'd pondered the question: If all it took was a bit of play-acting to affirm his faith in his padawan, to show Obi-Wan that he trusted him implicitly, then he would do this.

Brushing out his long hair and braiding it carefully, Qui-Gon thought back on Obi-Wan's training. He had tried to teach his apprentice to solve problems his own way; he'd stressed the need to seek solutions using methods that others ignored or did not see.

Obviously Obi-Wan had taken his lessons to heart. With Kotoni, his padawan had seen a problem, done his research, drawn a conclusion and formulated a solution. Scientific to the last and logically sound...even if it was a bit unusual. But as a master it was Qui-Gon's job to encourage his padawan's growth and learning-and he would not squelch Obi-Wan's self-esteem by turning down an idea simply because he personally did not favor it.

Boots on and fastened, Qui-Gon stood up. Reaching for his robe, he shook out whatever wrinkles there may have been before slipping it gracefully over his large frame. Dressed and ready, the Jedi master took a deep breath and checked the time. Half past tenth hour. Dousing the lights, he made his way out of the Temple.

Just as they'd planned, Obi-Wan was waiting for him in the gardens.

"Did you do it, Master?" Obi-Wan asked as Qui-Gon joined him at the edge of the Pools of Contemplation.

"Yes, Obi-Wan," Qui-Gon answered, looking out into the water. "Kotoni approached me after night meal, wanting to know if my evening was free, and I told him that I had other obligations."

"Did he believe you, do you think?" Obi-Wan asked anxiously.

The corners of Qui-Gon's mouth turned up. "I believe I was successful in conveying just what those obligations entailed, if the look on Kotoni's face and his angry departure were any indication."

"He'll come looking for you, you know," Obi-Wan said quietly.

"I believe that was part of your plan, Obi-Wan-was it not?" Qui-Gon teased gently.

"Y-yes, Master," Obi-Wan said, a bit uncertainly.

Qui-Gon turned his head, cobalt eyes meeting hazel. "Are you having second thoughts, Obi-Wan?" he asked gently.

Obi-Wan glanced away, toward the moonlit pools, then back at Qui-Gon. "No, Master," he answered honestly. "I'm not. But are you?"

Qui-Gon's chest tightened at the sweetness of the words. There it was again-Obi-Wan's overwhelming concern for his well-being.

"No, Obi-Wan, I am not. This is important to you and so it is important to me. You have sensed a danger and have planned a way to combat it. We are master and padawan and we will do this together, as we do many things together." Obi-Wan's eyes fairly glowed with his pleasure.

"But it is your plan, Obi-Wan," Qui-Gon continued. "And so you must lead." He turned fully toward his apprentice. "How shall we begin, my padawan?"

After a moment's pause, Obi-Wan slowly reached out, taking one of Qui-Gon's hands in his own, entwining their fingers. "I think we should begin like this," he said. Pulling gently, Obi-Wan led Qui-Gon across the grass toward a thicket of trees, knowing they would surely be followed.

The contented smile on his padawan's face was more than enough to convince Qui-Gon that he was doing the right thing.




Obi-Wan stopped at a small clearing between the tallest of the trees. He removed his cloak and laid it down upon the dampening grass. When he fell to his knees, Qui-Gon smoothly followed suit, Obi-Wan's slighter hand still clasped in his large one.

/He is here, Master,/ Obi-Wan told Qui-Gon apprehensively.

/I know,/ Qui-Gon told him. /I can feel his presence./

/Do you still want.../

/Obi-Wan,/ Qui-Gon reassured his padawan. /I am with you in this. You have only to tell me what to do, and I will do it./

Qui-Gon felt the heat that traveled through Obi-Wan at the Jedi master's words. It lit his mind like a spark on brittle kindling.

Suddenly, a warm hand was against Qui-Gon's cheek and Qui-Gon found himself leaning into the touch. He mirrored Obi-Wan's actions.

/Yes, Master, just like that,/ Obi-Wan said breathlessly. /Kotoni must believe this is real./

As a second hand slid through his hair, gently caressing and then freeing it from the braid, Qui-Gon felt sure Kotoni would never think otherwise.

Obi-Wan's hands found his shoulders and Qui-Gon was pushed backward until he found himself looking up at the stars.

/May I kiss you, Master?/

The shy question made Qui-Gon's heart thud in his chest. /Of course, Obi-Wan,/ he said. /Under the circumstances I would say that would be very appropriate./

Blocked from his view, the stars were all but forgotten as Qui-Gon's mouth was covered in the warm, wet heat of his padawan's kiss. Even from that small bit of contact, Qui-Gon could taste the remnants of the spicy soup and sweet fruits that had been a part of night meal. To his chagrin, he could feel himself becoming aroused. The tongue on his lips and teeth, begging entrance, was his undoing.

/Obi-Wan!/ Qui-Gon panted. /Tell me what you are feeling./ The question sounded out of place, even to Qui-Gon, but he was a teacher, above all else. His student's feelings were important to him, especially now.

Obi-Wan's movements never ceased. His tongue explored the Jedi master's mouth, roaming over smooth teeth and cheeks. Deftly, he used his tongue to capture Qui-Gon's tongue, suckling, pulling it into own mouth.

/I feel...dizzy.../ Obi-Wan admitted. /Dizzy with the sensations and the pleasure of having you this close to me. And I feel loved...and alive. More alive than I have ever felt. Can you feel it, Master?/

Qui-Gon could indeed feel it. There was an almost-electrical current between them that surpassed even their physical connection. /Yes, Obi-Wan,/ he said. /I feel it. I am only sorry it has taken us this long to discover it./ And then there was no more mind talk. The kiss abandoned, Obi-Wan's hands were everywhere, leaving Qui-Gon naked and gloriously hard before his padawan's eyes.

/Obi-Wan.../

Obi-Wan looked down at his master, suddenly unsure of himself. /Master?/

/Why are you still dressed?/ came the amused question. /This will be very difficult if only one of us is unclothed. Unless you only plan to.../

Before Qui-Gon could complete his thought, Obi-Wan's clothing lay piled next to his own in the grass.

/You were saying, Master...?/

/Very efficient, my Obi-Wan. Although how you became so accomplished at...this...I would venture I don't wish to know./

/Master!/

The mind cry was playful and endearing all at once, and Qui-Gon was lost in the aura that was his padawan.

/Obi-Wan.../ Qui-Gon was helpless to express himself as Obi-Wan's hands and mouth explored every inch of his skin. His body felt tight, restricted, even though he had nothing on. His erection throbbed, his balls ached, and the only thought in his mind was that of release. Release at the hands of Obi-Wan.

/Relax, my master,/ came Obi-Wan's soft voice in his mind. /I started this, and I shall finish it./

Delving into the folds of the outspread cloak, Obi-Wan retrieved a vial of oil, carefully placed for just such an occasion. Pouring it first onto his hands and himself, he next carefully set about to prepare Qui-Gon.

/Obi-Wan!/ Qui-Gon gasped as he was fully entered in the span of several well-placed movements. /Please...more!/

Sliding into his master's tight heat, Obi-Wan felt at peace. He belonged here, in his master's arms. In his master's body. Sliding all the way out, he began to thrust slowly and then faster, knowing intimately his master's desperate need.

/Your body...feels so good...around mine, Master,/ Obi-Wan sighed. /So right. Like we were made for each other. Inside you, I feel as if I'm...home./

Affected by his own words and thoughts, Obi-Wan's shaft pulsed inside Qui-Gon. Excitement surged through the older man at the sensation, fluid spilling copiously from his erection as Obi-Wan's passion spilled into his mind.

/Master.../ Obi-Wan was dismayed as he saw, rather than sensed, Qui-Gon's need. /I'm sorry. I have been selfish./

Immediately, the magical hands were back. Fingers that had earlier explored Qui-Gon's face and hair now fondled his full balls, pumped his swollen shaft. As Obi-Wan's thrusts quickened to match the rhythm of his hands, the world suddenly exploded.

/Obi-Wan!/

/Qui-Gon!/

Qui-Gon let his apprentice's use of his given name tumble through his brain. It was right. In this there was no master, no apprentice. In this first time together they were equals.




It didn't take Jedi hearing to know when the intruder turned away from the trees in heated retreat.

"Kotoni is gone, Obi-Wan," Qui-Gon whispered to the man he held tightly in his arms.

/Yes, Master,/ Obi-Wan answered back sleepily. /I felt him go./

"Do you think he believed us?"

A shiver ran through Obi-Wan as all of the sensations of the night returned to him. /Oh, yes, Master./

[el fin]

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